So, I’m working on something new.
That something new is letting go of anger and stress. I’ve been having some health issues, and I believe the major underlying cause is constant stress, which is causing other things like lack of sleep, and it’s just a big snowball.
I’ve had a recent semi-major, but hopefully only temporary life change, which is already helping my stress levels go down (I won’t bother explaining why I want something that is lowering my stress levels to be temporary). As well, I’m focusing on letting go of all the little petty, and sometimes larger things that annoy and piss me off, because there is nothing I can do about them, and while venting about them works when I am in a better state of mind, when I’m already constantly stressed, that doesn’t seem to be the right way to go. And I’m doing my best to avoid being bombarded by constant horrible news online, because while I know there is a lot of bad in the world, there is an awful lot more good, and sometimes it is hard to remember all the good when you’re drowning in the bad, because the bad gets more clicks and sells more ads. That said, I don’t think I’ll ever enjoy sappy, happy things that go viral, either. That’s just not me.
I’ve never been a terribly relaxed person (physically), even at the best of times, but I am much more relaxed now than I have been in many, many months. Hopefully my body gets the message soon and I start feeling better.